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TO UNDINE
[Undine's letter is found tucked under a pillow on the bed she chose, after the Trial.]
Hey, Undine.
If you're reading this, then...I've died. I thought this might happen, so...I asked Max for some paper, so I could get everything down.
I just...wanted to say that I was happy I met you. You're a good person - despite the shitty situation you were stuck in - and you've got a really, really big heart. Big in a way that mine used to be, a long time ago.
I hope that you never lose it.
By now, you've probably read my note to the players....and I'm sorry I never told you about any of my past. I remember how you reacted the first week, and, well...
I didn't want to burden you with it when you've already got so much to worry about.
[...]
I know - that you and Akira can make it, no matter what. I believe in you, even if I'm not there to heal you or anyone else anymore, so...that just means you'll have to be more careful, alright? No more fights with things or people that'll mess you up, okay?
I...I know this might sound stupid or...whatever. But...I'm so glad I could protect someone, for just a little bit. I'd...thought that I could never protect anyone again - that all I was good for was killing - but being able to save you from being executed, I...
[There are a few teardrops on the page.]
It made me remember who I used to be, before all of this. The ideals I hung onto - it's in my name. 'Ichi' and 'Go', 'one' and 'protect' - for a long time, I've thought I didn't deserve it anymore.
But last week?
Last week...made me think that maybe, just maybe...that part of my life wasn't completely dead.
...I'll miss you. But keep moving on, alright? Be strong in your own way - a way I've lost. The players - and the reapers - are going to need your strength.
Goodbye.
[And at the bottom, his signature.]
Hey, Undine.
If you're reading this, then...I've died. I thought this might happen, so...I asked Max for some paper, so I could get everything down.
I just...wanted to say that I was happy I met you. You're a good person - despite the shitty situation you were stuck in - and you've got a really, really big heart. Big in a way that mine used to be, a long time ago.
I hope that you never lose it.
By now, you've probably read my note to the players....and I'm sorry I never told you about any of my past. I remember how you reacted the first week, and, well...
I didn't want to burden you with it when you've already got so much to worry about.
[...]
I know - that you and Akira can make it, no matter what. I believe in you, even if I'm not there to heal you or anyone else anymore, so...that just means you'll have to be more careful, alright? No more fights with things or people that'll mess you up, okay?
I...I know this might sound stupid or...whatever. But...I'm so glad I could protect someone, for just a little bit. I'd...thought that I could never protect anyone again - that all I was good for was killing - but being able to save you from being executed, I...
[There are a few teardrops on the page.]
It made me remember who I used to be, before all of this. The ideals I hung onto - it's in my name. 'Ichi' and 'Go', 'one' and 'protect' - for a long time, I've thought I didn't deserve it anymore.
But last week?
Last week...made me think that maybe, just maybe...that part of my life wasn't completely dead.
...I'll miss you. But keep moving on, alright? Be strong in your own way - a way I've lost. The players - and the reapers - are going to need your strength.
Goodbye.
[And at the bottom, his signature.]