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Week 2, Post-Mission
[How are you doing, Izaya? Still crying over not having any fatty tuna anymore after the day's events? Boy, I sure hope you're ready for a high as fuck shonen stumbling into your place, looking a little concerned and leaning over you like he hasn't seen you in years.]
Izaaaaaaaaaaaaaayaaaaaaaa. Izaya. Hey.
[He reaches out with his hand to pat the poor, distraught man on the head, no matter if he's standing or sitting.]
Don't....don't be ssssss...sad. I'm sorry, ohkay? Sorry I yelled and got...mad at you like, really mad? Didn't mean to, I just, got really, reaaaaaaaaallly angry 'cause everything was stupid., and, like...I like you as my fe-fellow Reaper an' all...so. Sorry.
Izaaaaaaaaaaaaaayaaaaaaaa. Izaya. Hey.
[He reaches out with his hand to pat the poor, distraught man on the head, no matter if he's standing or sitting.]
Don't....don't be ssssss...sad. I'm sorry, ohkay? Sorry I yelled and got...mad at you like, really mad? Didn't mean to, I just, got really, reaaaaaaaaallly angry 'cause everything was stupid., and, like...I like you as my fe-fellow Reaper an' all...so. Sorry.
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Hm.]
Taako gave you weed, huh.
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[He perks up, because! Izaya isn't sad anymore!! Hurray!!!]
I got a hit and now I feel really, really good? Like, I haven't felt this good in....in...
[He falls silent as his stoned mind attempts to figure out the puzzle of time and memories.
It fails, and he gives up.]
...ever. I think. What about you, Izaaaaaaaaaaaayaaaaaaaaaa?
[He's not going to stop drawing out his name, either. It's too fun to say it like that.]
Are you okay? I know you liked the sushi place....and the tuna and now it's gone, but you can't be sad because...'cause....everything is good and okay, and, we're gonna find all the other bad reapers and kill the hell out of them or get them executed, right?
[If his wings were out, they'd be flapping lethargically right about now - all while having the biggest idiot grin on his face.]
We're gonna do it! An', An', we need you, so....don't cry. Don't.
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That's alright, but what happens after that? That is... once we kill all of the Conductor's Reapers, the Players still have to engage in the Game. Don't they? Isn't it in some ways more terrible to take away an enemy? A Conductor will only revive so many.
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But now? The weed is making him both more and less emotional, and he has Zero filter - so he just reaches up and smacks Izaya on the head.]
Stop it. You're always like this, Izaya - always someone who's gotta think about everything too much. Always talking, and, all that shit, about things like no one else's ever thought of 'em the way you do.
[He reaches for Izaya's face, intent on squishing his cheeks together if he manages to grab hold.]
I. Know. I know that The Players gotta be thinned out. I've hadda kill a bunch of players before because that's how things go, and, I'm a Reaper just like you, Izayaaaaaa. I know we can't save everybody an', an', I hate it. But I'm trying not to think about it an' just do our job, an'.....an' if you and popopo wanna kill a bunch of Players...'cause you think that's the right thing to do, I will stop you because that's not our job an' you're....you're taking it too far.
It's not our job to judge Players. So....stop acting like I don't know how any of this works, okay? Okay.
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You misunderstand me, Ichigo. It isn't like I think I'm saying anything new, or that I think I'm out of the ordinary for a human. I'd say instead that I'm a very ordinary person, and that most of the things I say are inconsistent or have already been said before.
That's why I know that nothing I'll say is anything new to you. You know the truth of the situation, but you don't want to act in its frame. You understand the weight of your actions, but you will neither embrace your new role nor abandon it through the ready escape of Erasure. You care, but your caring is self-serving efforts to achieve salvation.
In other words, you've taken on a position that is an inherent contradiction of your true nature, and this has paralysed you. Fully aware of your situation, you still act as if it were not the case, because it is a reality you can't accept.
However, such an illusion is not capable of enduring forever. Eventually, the situation will collapse. We'll have to kill Players, sure, or watch them kill each other. We might even have to turn on our own partners.
I consider you a friend, Ichigo. That's why, as your friend, I choose to remind you of the truth you don't want to dwell on. I would like to see you change and grow instead of remaining in this stasis that you have inhabited since you have become a Reaper. I think if you can accept the truth of your situation, not as something you hate and resent, but as something to act on in one way or another, then you will be able to grow.
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But this isn't sober Ichigo. This is high Ichigo, and he zoned out about two sentences in.
So after Izaya's grand speech on the nature of things and how he wants Ichigo to grow concludes, Ichigo just blankly stares at him before letting out one single word that encompasses the entirety of his understanding of what Izaya just said.]
...What?
[Yep.]
Izayaaaaaaaa, I just said you talk too much....were you listening to meeee? Izayaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...do you, like, just like listening to yourself talk?
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[He takes the pats, though he's clearly grumpy now.]
My...friend? You sure, like, really sure about that, Izaya? I'm a bad liar, right? An' Some other stuff you've said...
[He huffs, sliding down to take a seat at an empty table.]
Whatever. You're dumb, Izaya. Duuuuumb.
[Ah, apparently it's time for him to be a petulant child.]
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